A primal wound of not enough.

A foundational sense of lack, incompleteness, or deep-seated separation.

A feeling of being small, cut off or fundamentally flawed.

Constant cravings or longing for… something.

Or feeling like you have to constantly prove your worth?

Anyone? And how many of you have been ‘working on’ any of this for weeks? Months? Years? Or even decades?

You’ve journaled, done breathwork, sound journeys, somatic therapy, ecstatic dance, shadow work… 

ALL THE THINGS.

But still, it’s there, a gnawing sense of not being enough, of longing for something, of being flawed.

No matter what you try, you just can’t get rid of it.

What if it wasn’t something you’re meant to get rid of?

But something that is calling you into your inherent wholeness?

What if those thoughts and feelings are breadcrumbs leading you home… and you keep leaf-blowing the path clean?

I’ll come back to this. But first... Hands up if this is also you.

Your mind constantly sorts the world into good and bad, right and wrong, them and us.

It’s comparing everything, and judging everyone, all the time. Omigod, can you believe what that person is wearing!?

You wake up thinking, you go to sleep thinking, and sometimes, you could swear you’re thinking your way through your dreams as well.

Now this may not be something you’ve even thought to ‘get rid of’. This one might just feel like it’s the way your mind works - I mean, isn’t that the way everyone’s minds work?

Short answer.

No.

There is a place where all of that constant overthinking, comparison and judgment just disappears, leaving a mind that is chill, still and focused on the kind of thinking that is required. Like maths.

Instead of judging everything, you find yourself marvelling at everything, or appreciating it. Wow, can you believe what that person is wearing?

Now maybe you don’t relate to that. But how about this? Last round, peeps.

You’ve got a million creative ideas, but execute none of them, because what if you fail. Or, gasp, what if you succeed?

You’re on the go from dawn to dusk, and beyond, because if you don’t do All The Things, the world will fall apart.

You haven’t had a holiday in years, because without you at the helm, your business and your life fall over. 

Your to-do lists run out the door and never end. But that one time, when you did get to the end, you were crippled by such a strong sense of anxiety you immediately made up some entries just to feel at ease again. 

But get this! There is a place where you can rest, with ease, and discover that not only does the world keep turning, but somehow it all seems to get done because YOU have let go.

You are no longer doing, but doing is happening. 

Sound like you? And you too, huh? Oh, and YOU as well. Damn - ok, so this sounds like SO MANY OF us, right?

Maybe, just maybe, NONE of those thoughts or feelings above are our personal failings, our personal flaws, or our personal beliefs.

Maybe this is just the human condition.

Which is EXACTLY what the Classical Tantrik teaching on the Three Malas is all about.

Round one? That's Āṇava mala. The ignorance of individuality.
Round two? Māyīya mala. The ignorance of separation.
Round three? Kārma mala. The ignorance of doership.

Three malas. Three stains. Three ignorances. And EVERY human has all three running.

This teaching is about the nature of ignorance, which sits below the intellect, and impacts us all, until they don't. It’s about what happens when that ignorance is dissolved into awareness, and how that then changes what one believes, thinks, says and does.

Yup, dissolving the ignorance is the key.

And that’s where we are going to go, over this three-week portal, which has already started in the private channel.

We’ll learn to use the breadcrumb trail of these kinds of thoughts to find our way home to the wholeness that is already there.